As it stands today, i am 29 years old... I turn 30 in November... I have a nice girlfriend... a nice car... a good job... and im going to be moving in a couple of weeks. My taste in music varies greatly.. I typically like Sci-Fi and Comedy.. I'm SchizoAffective, Have social Anxiety, I'm over weight... i smoke and drink... and overall i cant complain about life.
The purpose of this blog is to track my progress... the ups and downs of life in my 30's. While im not there yet... its just around the corner and i am hoping for several things to happen over the next few years... I'm hoping for a promotion... hoping to lose weight... maybe settle down with my girl... buy a house... and who knows.. maybe and produce a little mini me. But these are all things that will come in their own time.
Some of my interests include... science, computers, philosophy, religion, and politics... Basically all the things you shouldn't talk about in polite company. Overall... Today... i am happy. I havent always been... i've been down many dark roads waiting for the light to break over the horizon and i feel that dawn has finally come. I have many good friends... and a great family.
When i was 22 i attempted suicide (sorry to get deep)... Luckily for me i failed... because the rebuild process may have taken many years... but i feel i am at a better place in my life than say... when i was 21.
Life with schizoaffective disorder has been hard... but all in all its just a pill i have to take at night and then i go on with my life. anxiety kept me quiet for a long time after the attempt... but with the right medication and a bit of challenging myself to be more social... i can now meet strangers with little to no issues... and generally people atleast fake that they enjoy talking to me... because when i see them again they are quick to start up a conversation about current events which is something i like talking about the most. Small minds talk about themselves... normal minds talk about others... great minds talk about ideas and concepts. i think someone important once said that.
Over the course of the the next month or so i will be moving in with a friend of mine until he decides to sell his house. It's really a convenient situation for me... i just wish i came on better terms. With that said... if the deal falls through... which i should know in the next few days... i'll proposition another friend of my to she if she wants a roommate because her roommate is going to be out by the end of the month also so she is going to be looking for a roommate. Either way i am going to be moving out of my parents apartment and onto the rest of my life. Things are going to be a little chaotic for a short time while i settle into my new living arrangements... but once that passes i hope to be taking directions to improve my overall health and improve my life. I would like to cut down on my drinking over the next year... cut down on the smoking completely within six months... and get to a manageable weight within 2 years. I'm 5'8, 245lbs and while i carry myself well... the weight takes a toll on my body. I haven't always been this big... as a teenager i was about 170-190 with my lowest weight ever being when i was 22 at 140 lbs... with that said though... i was very sick and skin and bones pretty much. this time around... i want to take the 245 pounds and turn it into 180 pounds of solid muscle.
Like i said... the purpose of this blog will be to track life in my 30's... i wont typically get into to much detail about day to day things unless something that happens on a given day is important enough to note... instead its going to be for a general release of thoughts on given topics and dilemma's that come up and basically a way that i can track progress over the 10 year span to see if i am meeting my goals. Talk is cheap and its easy to write so hopefully the actions and efforts that i put forth will pay off.. With that said, i likely wont be writing hear until november rolls around and the big day comes. Till then... have a pleasant fall
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