All things being considered, at least I'm not outside today. With the windchill factor it feels like its around 5 degrees outside. The winds are mighty today.
Overall my mind has been rather chaotic. I wasnt feeling well mentally or physically today so i have been working from home. The house is rather drafty so even with the heat on 67 my hands and feet are still cold. I may hop in the shower in a little while. I've recently setup an instagram account and while there isnt much on it... it gives for a little extra entertainment when scrolling through feeds on my phone. Recently, an old friend got in touch with me and her and i have been communicating for about a month now. It's good to talk to old friends.
Work wise things have been busy the first few weeks of the year. I think it was non stop for the last two weeks and well, i had yesterday off due to the holiday and today i'm home sick. The goal is to keep my head low and get my work done. Not that I'm in any trouble... but i feel like if i can just stay focused a bit longer i'll finally be getting ahead at my job. Raises come out in two weeks. I am hoping that mine is just a bit more than the amount i was told back in december. I've adjusted my taxes down to zero and increased my 401k up to 6%... while taking a hit on the week to week level has me scrambling to figure out how i'm going to make up the difference in pay... I know its for the best when next years taxes roll around and i end up getting back a decent refund. As for the 401k.... yeah... its 35 years away till retirement... but the more i can put away now while the market is down, the more i'll have when the market finally rebounds.
Health wise... i wish i could say things have improved but really they havent. I did buy a weight bench and set it up in the basement over the last month but motivation to go downstairs and workout has been lacking mainly due to lack of time... and the cold... The basement is heated, but its not exactly warm.
A cup of coffee did help warm me up. and.. its nearly 5pm and its still light out.... kinda.
On The agenda for tonight is taco's i think. Right now i'm listening to Explosions in the Sky on Spotify. I've always liked instrumental rock music and they are by far... the best at it.
I think the key to my happiness is all going to come down to just accepting life as it is... Not trying to rush or make any rash decisions without thinking through all of the options... and putting in perspective where i was 1, 2, and 5 years ago... in comparison to where i am now. And realizing that things have been much worse in the past and still i've managed to get through it. While that wont change my circumstances im in today, it may help me be more focused and centered for the challenges ahead. I would leave it in gods hands... but i know better than to have blind faith in a creator that may or may not exist.
The power of positive thinking is going to be what gets me out of this one... and overcoming my major fear of change. So often i've associated change with negative events... but really.. the good events happen due to change as well... its just that i dont think about them as often.
I think i am going to reread The Motivation Manifesto... It wasnt a bad read the last time i read it... and maybe this time something will hit me that didnt register before. I kinda dislike the fact that i've gotten to the point in my life where self help books are my regular reading material... but in truth... they are easy reads and all basically have the same message. I should probably get into some fiction....
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