Live in the moment.

So... Today is a good day.

I'm waiting for a check to clear in my bank account. I think once that happens i will be a bit less stressed about my situation. Tomorrow is pay day and as of today, I'm basically broke. There are a few things on the agenda for the day and once they are in motion i should have a productive day. I've been having a really hard time focusing on anything for more than a few minutes at a time this week. It could be due to lack of sleep and a general issue with drinking over the past weekend that is still weighing on me today. On my lunch break today i need to run out and grab a pack of smokes. I haven't exercised at all this week even though last wednesday i was really hopeful that i would be starting a new routine. The gas station by my house is now selling nicotine gum... i may pick up a pack at some point this week to see if it is any good, and if it would be helpful for quitting smoking.

I am looking forward to visiting my sister in May, it's only 5 weeks away. I miss her, and since she announced that she is getting married next year i am hoping that when i go out there it will be a good time. No one knows what the future holds but i am hopeful that it will be a happy visit. Last time i saw her i was stuck in my head (WAY) too much.

Loneliness is weighing on me recently. I just want a best friend. Not to say that my friends arn't good people, but sometimes they lack a sense of.... empathy. My roommate has been known to be quite abrasive so i am wondering if and when i should cut the cord and move into my own place. I dont want to do it to soon. Personally i'd prefer to be moving into a house rather than another apartment but time will tell on that one. Maybe i'll start shopping around for an apartment once june hits. I do miss my cat.