Right now.... my mind is going through complex chemical reactions that my body is trying to adjust to. The withdrawal symptoms of increased serotonin and dopamine are throwing me for a loop today. Between grinding my teeth... Very fast typing... and not sleeping well last night... i am in the middle of what i can only hope to be a short period of manic thinking and speedy behavior... along with the teary eyed joys of living this moment in time with lots of love around me and in me to give.
Today i made a hard decision as to the future of my life and while i am waiting for feedback from trusted sources... at this point it is really out of my hands into the hands of those people with whom i trust my future.
Things honestly have been fantastic for me since late march and with new prospects and people entering my life each weeks seems to get better and better. Joy has replaced sorrow... People have replaced isolation... and Abundance has finally started to flow into my life after i willed it there for so long without it appearing. My Family is happy... I am Happy.. I really have a lot to be thankful for. Over the years there has been so much heart ache and struggle that i never thought i would see the blue sky again... but there it is... shining brightly on all the land and i can do is well up tears at the magnificent beauty that is life. I am truly greatful for the life that i have. I always have been even if my attitude wasnt always the most positive. I have found through much thought on the matter that the power of positive thinking really can change ones life. I'm grateful for my friends... my family... my work... and most of all you... for people a source of endless hours of therapy.
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